People are great! They are interesting storytellers almost without opening their mouths. They have these abilities that others take for granted. Smiles, laughter, heartache, wonder. Its endless, and with it, the sense that gives them that moment of reason or clarity. They get it. Maybe not right away but they will perhaps in time. It spawns in all of us. It befuddles me that there is so much separation among the races yet we all experience the same feelings. Unbelievable. Yet others can’t see, or choose not to see.

We could all be advocates for each other, the possibilities would show no bounds.

Full Circle

Entry # IhaveNOidea

The world seems a little more clearer today then it has in a while. Like going up a prescription set of glasses. I have had a headache all day and it is finally letting up. My back is still on fire but it to is slowly getting better.

I am in an odd sort of mood. Instead of not having anything to write about I find myself sifting thru my thoughts wondering what to write about first. Now not having that wretched headache has loosened the webs and has come forth a mind of thoughts and ideas. Quite the opposite of what people have usually. I am no author or writer but as I said in one of my other posts, if I don’t get the thoughts out they will haunt me later so, on a draft I have a list of things to possibly write about. I might look at this post tomorrow and ask the question, “What was I thinking?” Eh, its MY blog so I guess I will leave it and look back later and possibly laugh.


Usually I don’t write about my dreams because they are personal to me but this one has a hold of me….

I keep having the same recurring dream that I was standing in the middle of my yard and were speaking to a few police about someone stealing a police car. Just then out of nowhere this cop car  comes barreling up, popped the curb and was aiming for the two cops in front of me. Their backs were to the speeding car and I pushed both of them out of the way and started running but I didn’t have time to turn and run so I was backing up as fast as I could. I was forced to stop at the dead edge of the neighbors home made of brick. The car hits me in the legs so hard that I fall forward due to the car severing my legs from my body. Crews were on the scene. disoriented it goes to the classic scene of me laying in the hospital room. everyone I know is there saying prayers and giving thanks that I was still alive. I open my eyes and ask to read a book. Not your typical first words but then the scene changes to me reading and the doctors speaking that the back of my brain was exposed to brick and one half had grown into the other half meaning the creative and the logical were intertwined. It gave me the ability to recall and have an eidetic memory.

They say dreams last a few seconds but this dream has been had well over 100 times. Literally. Not sure if it is a precursor to something to come or just a dream or me needing to really help someone. No one will know unless it becomes full circle.

Ok, bored you long enough.

No Words

I am blessed.
Blessed to have not one family but multiple families that love me, and I them.
I have not one friend but I have several, and they are precious to me.
I have my soulmate of almost 15 years. (exactly 2 months from todays date)
I have two children that amaze me daily.
I am blessed.

I wanted to just take a moment and explain how much all of you mean to me, but they just don’t have words for how thankful I am.

They say all the great words have already been spoken, it’s the order of those words that is the key. I have been in a self realization mode lately. My renaissance perhaps. I have been trying to engage with people more. An extra Thank You here and there. Any polite gesture. Lets you know that humanity has a place here. Try and walk up to someone and ask them about a dress they are wearing or wave hi at a child passing by at the local supermarket. Help someone when normally you wouldn’t stop. You would be amazed at their reactions. You might get the occasional empty gesture in return but at least you did your part. You helped. You contributed your humanity. True you might not always get the response you were looking for but there are others that are watching you.

You just might start a trend.

Trip Down Waters Edge

Someone gave us a gift to go eat at Chilies. Sitting in a booth with my best bud Cory, and my wife Kasaundra. Ordered the 3 FOR ME meal. Woh doggie that is some good eats there. Got a Craft Double Burger, house salad and a mini molten cake. Service was exceptional. Went to the one on N. Classen, if you are in the OKC area.

Next up we are going to the bridge overlooking Lake Hefner. Again at night due to the temperature. Oklahoma has been an increasingly hateful summer, just scorching.

There is something about the bridge over the water. Everything just stops. All you hear is the waves handshaking the rocks, yet the stillness in itself is so mesmerizing. Your troubles take a back seat. You just exists to view the painting laid out before you.

We spoke about life experiences, death, life, and dreams. It was almost like sitting at a campfire. How the flames tend to reach down your throat and grab images and produce wonderful memories, thoughts, and ideas.

I never voiced anything looking out at the water, not out loud. I chose to reflect more internally and blog after. I was thinking that ever since I got to Oklahoma I have had many great friends and so many experiences, good and bad. Some friends that I call family. I Left many back in Iowa. I miss them. The thing with life though is that it is ever-evolving. I know there was nothing left in Iowa for me. I had to follow my instincts as well as my heart. I am both glad and sad that I did. No regrets, just painful goodbyes but wonderful hellos.